Friday, February 28, 2014

Soul Mate?

What in the world is a soul mate? I hear it all the time. I have believed in the reality of a soul mate for the past few years, but I don't think I quite got it right. You see, we put these unnecessarily huge burdens on our 'soul mate'. Let's take a trip back to my first year of college. Stick with me guys.

" I think I found my soul mate! He is the one." I sang to my friend, Lydia.
"There is no other guy I could love more than him. God knows me so well!"

Well, God also knew me well enough to put a gaping hole in my heart that He could fill. Don't misunderstand me; I believe in the beauty of a godly marriage. I just don't believe in a 'soul mate'. I don't really know what I think about 'the one'. There are way too many things that could go wrong with that mentality. I DO believe that God knows who we are gonna marry, but I do not believe that that person is necessarily our soul mate. 

1 "How lovely is your dwelling place,
    Lord Almighty!
My soul yearns, even faints,
    for the courts of the Lord;
my heart and my flesh cry out
    for the living God. - Psalm 84:1-2 

My soul yearns, even faints. Wow. Do you see how much truth is behind those two verses? Truth on how we should view relationships and even marriage. Jesus is our soul mate. He always has been and always will be. Your significant other or spouse is a puzzle piece in what God wants to accomplish in and through you and vice versa. Of course you must marry somebody you love, but there are some tests that I feel that every Believer needs to do before even considering getting into a relationship because a relationships without marriage in mind is a waste of time. I will discuss those tests in a later blog. Stay tuned. 

This whole 'the one' idea has been messing with my head for far too long. I will not focus on finding that person, but instead get caught up in what Jesus is calling me to. He will lead me to the right relationship in due season. So let's stop for a minute and think. Have you ever put unnecessary pressure on your significant other to be this 'perfect gift from God'? If you have, go call them and apologize right now. Go on. I'm not joking. Repent from putting that person as an idol. I know what you're gonna say because I said the exact same thing: "But wait a minute, I don't have any golden statues or crazy ornaments." No, we probably don't. I don't at least. We have these other subtle idols: spouses/bf or gf, material things, school, ministry (aha! didn't think that could be one huh?), and the list goes on. The bottom line is this: idols don't look like idols, but they have the same effect on us. We give our entire lives to it. We are manipulated and controlled by it. We kick God to the bottom of the list. It's pretty crazy right? Crazy that we kick God, the one who died for our sins (past-present-future) and loves us unconditionally, to the bottom of our list. I'm saying this from the perspective of someone who is walking through an intense season of healing in this area. Jesus is your soul mate. Your significant other is a puzzle piece in God's amazing plan for BOTH of your lives! 

He truly is the lover of our souls as the old song states. 
What amazing, crazy, reckless is this that died for me?! 
I ought to worship the being in charge of this.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." -John 3:16

I know that this verse is easily overlooked, Christianese kind of stuff. But try to re read again and meditate on it. He SO LOVED the world. 
He is the ONLY answer to true satisfaction and true love. 

Jesus, Jesus. Help me love you more and more each day because up until today, I have not done so. 

Keep an attitude of gratitude and a mindset of passion; stay passionate for and about His love. May we never stop pursuing it with all that's within us.

God bless & Goodnight. 

Friday, February 7, 2014

A Road Trip with Disatisfaction

I'm driving home with my younger sister, Sarah and I experience an overwhelming dissatisfaction with life (not talking depression, so stick with me guys). I was not satisfied being complacent and stationary any longer. My inner self screamed these words with ever breath I had left:
  I am not satisfied
  I cannot find satisfaction in anything
  Help me God! 
Exactly. That's what the Spirit whispered to my bewildered soul. As He sweetly gently caressed my Spirit, He brought this verse to mind:
  "Meaningless! Meaningless!" Says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless."
    - Ecclesiastes 1:2
This is undeniably true when you pursue worldly fame, fortune, and power. None of it will last. It will ALWAYS leave you dissatisfied. I can guarantee you that because I've been there, done that. Never going to go back. There is God-shaped hole in ALL of us. Catch that? ALL of us. We are all created with an innate desire for God whether you are a Believer or not. If you aren't or are, I love you so much! Please keep following my blog. Just give it a shot.

I would like to take some time to give you some background of myself. Well, I grew up in a very legalistic church. I really never knew Jesus until my family and I started attending New Hope Oah'u. From there, we moved to New Hope Leeward and here I am today. NHL is where I started to really start asking the hard questions about Christianity. I was in about seventh grade when I started to attend the junior high youth group (Vibe- since then it has changed to InThe Mix) and I started to see more about who this Jesus guy was, but I did not have a very good youth group experience. I understand now that that was a learning experience, but I am glad with where it is going now! I was involved with skits when I was in my early high school years in Epic High School Ministry. I loved it. I was saved by amazing grace November 6, 2011 and re-dedicated August 4, 2013. I was called into youth ministry almost immediately following my baptism. It was crazy and insane (still is! but I love it to death) and it was hard for me to receive for a long time. I planted a Christian club ( Ground Zero) in my high school (Hanalani) and started on student leadership at what is now Inspire Church. It is surreal to think how far I've come since then. I was called up to NHCC-OR and last year, He called me back home to serve the Epic High School Ministry and go to NHCC-HI as well as help with familial issues. I am blessed beyond measure to be in the Aloha state once again! I absolutely am completely falling head over heels with Jesus and youth ministry. I am excited to discover what more He has in store for me! I am excited to embark on this journey with you all!

"Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

Really take that in. Next time I'm going to talk about that verse amongst others.
Love you all!! Really excited to finally be starting this blog haha.